After a long time exploring myself and many psychological sessions, I can say that I have revealed some strong psychological figures (Inner Child, Feminine, Tyrant, and Contemporary).
I noticed that when I was designing or thinking about new works, some paths were taken in a completely different way than others, e.g., 'the process of creating oil paintings was completely different from inventing sculptures.
Also, the process of creating sculptures was different from the design of bas-reliefs. It made me wonder. I asked myself why the sculptures appear in my head and why I feel completely different when I think about them.
One evening it struck me. When I design Sculptures, I do it from the female side (feminine psychological figure). People who know me well can see very clearly that I have a clear feminine side. It seems to me that in my sculptures, you can see a lot of emotions, grace, and emotional development.
I noticed that my reliefs are being created from the tyrannical side. You can see '' brutalism'', angular, very sharp shapes, the monochrome color palette in reliefs.
I have known for a long time that there is a very strong child in me. One of the most important discoveries was when I started painting with only my Left hand. This process engulfed me as if I was in a trance. I didn't expect this at all, but after a few hours, I saw that I was lying on the floor, swinging my legs with my tongue out like a child.
I forgot about time and barriers literally like a child that was a powerful experience for me.
So far, I have tried to contain all my characters in oil paintings (contemporary side) unknowingly.
I tried to give a political and social message, childish character, emotion, style, etc. but from this time on, I will explore individual projects as separate psychological characters and not combine them by force. Allowed them to create as separate entities.
In the attachment, I am sending presentations of individual psychological figures. This is an early stage to discover, and I suppose a few more figures will emerge in the near future.
Maybe it sounds crazy, but it doesn't really matter because I know I feel real. Personally, this is one of the most important discoveries in my artistic career so far.
